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Janice Walton's avatar

I have a purpose and many things to be grateful for today. I have enjoyable moments, and at the same time, my sense of security - my feeling of being safe and protected is missing.

Marilyn Thom's avatar

Seems you've been reading my mind again Janice! If we lived closer geographically I expect I'd be popping over for a coffee and time to ruminate about our "stories". Today I have found myself with the "Why" occupying too much space. Thank you for reminding me that I'm not unique AND that I'm not alone AND that I have so much to be grateful for.

Janice Walton's avatar

Hi Marilyn, The loss of security was a complete surprise. Dan had been there for so long in my life. When my parents died - he was there, when my brother died he was there. Every problem that arose - we solved it together. Now, it's up to me - it's a new world.

Marilyn Thom's avatar

Although not the same number of years as you and Dan had, I find this business of being alone has forced me to look more closely at "now what do I do". I continue to fall back to just dealing with each day the best I know how and trusting that "Perfectly on Time" is a good way for me to "watch" the world.

Debbie Weil's avatar

Janice, I'm still part of a (longtime) couple but I often wonder... how will I cope if Sam is no longer at my side?? Thank you so much for sharing this and for so lightly touching on the pain you must be feeling. I can read that between your graceful words. Just a guess, but the fact that you're writing about this probably means you are on the road to figuring things out... to be continued with [B]OLD WOMEN. xx

Janice Walton's avatar

Hi Debbie, So true - most of my writing is about me trying to figure out how to go on by myself - after losing the mainstay in my life.

Patti Petersen's avatar

This is such a thought provoking read. The security issue is huge. I felt it in this piece. How to prepare is another story. I commend your taking one step at a time to walk through the uncertainty. You are doing a wonderful job from what I've read in your sharing. Thank you for writing through your process.

nancy knox-bierman's avatar

You are so lucky to have had the relationship you had. I am so sorry for your loss.

Janice Walton's avatar

Hi Nancy, Yes I was lucky - he was my protector for many years.

nancy knox-bierman's avatar

Cherish his memory always.

Many of us seek, but never find that lasting love.

I am so sorry for your loss.

Kevin Ferguson's avatar

I feel for you Janice. Grieving, rediscovering yourself, and finding that inner sense of security is a journey that requires immense courage. Sending you warmth and support. ❤️

Janice Walton's avatar

Hi Kevin, It's been quite the journey, that's for sure.

TURBO GOTH's avatar

You are strong and courageous. Thank be open for what’s to come. To be complete within. To go day by day increasing our understanding of Truths. I admire your resilience 🙏

Janice Walton's avatar

Thank you Paolo.

TURBO GOTH's avatar

Stay on the positive side. We always have a choice. It’s the story we tell ourselves. Stay mindful 🙏

Janice Walton's avatar

Words of wisdom.