I hear you Janice. I'm sending a hug and sitting alongside you with my big mug of tea. (love the little watchdog joke). On one hand you've had a high volume of fast changes PLUS writing and connecting here...and Pickleball!? There is no right or wrong AND no speedometer here! From where I'm standing, you've had big amplitudes of change, and what you're describing as 'falling into old habits' is actually a rest period! May I suggest that this sounds like how you're managing to navigate through your grief. It's okay to rest, and reflect. It's okay to try or do lots of things. It's okay to not be okay - these are phrases I intentionally have said to myself to avoid guilting myself into an action.
I hear you Janice. I'm sending a hug and sitting alongside you with my big mug of tea. (love the little watchdog joke). On one hand you've had a high volume of fast changes PLUS writing and connecting here...and Pickleball!? There is no right or wrong AND no speedometer here! From where I'm standing, you've had big amplitudes of change, and what you're describing as 'falling into old habits' is actually a rest period! May I suggest that this sounds like how you're managing to navigate through your grief. It's okay to rest, and reflect. It's okay to try or do lots of things. It's okay to not be okay - these are phrases I intentionally have said to myself to avoid guilting myself into an action.
I like that, it’s not ok to be ok sometimes..